Thanks to everyone who e-mailed me and who left me comments about my dilemma.
There is a difference between the words "decide" and "choose." The roots of "decide" are in the same place as the words "suicide" and "homicide" and so on. It has to do with killing the alternatives. This wasn't a decision for me. I had to choose, which has much more to do with an emotional alignment: more like embracing what you do want than shoving away what you don't. And it was hard for me to think about embracing supermarkets.
I don't see it that way now...I realized I have some options that I can exercise.